The EvR0ck Continuum

Since I was thinking about that 3am Dead show at the first Bonnaroo I went to, here's a little festival tale, about the farm in Tennessee. I spent all of Thursday (the day before the festival started) wandering around the huge site  with a handle of Jack Daniel's, welcoming everyone to my high school graduation party. I must have gotten pretty drunk, cause I passed out in a camping chair and pissed my pants. My good friends thought it would be a great idea to stick lsd gel tabs to my face during my bourbon slumber. I woke up with little purple gelatin squares all over my face, feeling strange.  Bonnaroo is a no holds barred drug circus, and I was using MDMA as a dietary supplement. I would be on 4 or 5 substances at once, tripping around in love with love.  I met the southern kid with pints of raw ether. " the ether is in its own tent in case it explodes, bro" It made perfect sense. I soaked bounty paper towels in raw ether and hunter thompsoned around the...

pjc 4/15/85- 4/3/05  When I was 19 I lost a dear friend to a drunk driving accident. Since today is his birthday I'd like to write about one of the most idyllic tines in my life.  I want to write about the summer before his passing, the summer after I had squeaked out of high school, the summer when I had a new best friend. Pat j. Corbett and I bonded at Bonnaroo 2004 at The Dead show that was postponed until about 3 am  due to tornado warning. The show was properly psychedelic and pat and I were quite psychedelically inclined. We navigated the scary spacey stuff of the 2nd set  as a duo  until it landed into the joyous roll of "Franklin's Tower." We survived the improvisational psychedelic set 2 skull fuck together and became inseparable. "If you get confused listen to the music play"- "Franklin's Tower", The Grateful fucking Dead When the 8-10 friends that I went to the festival with got home we were electrified  by the shared exp...

I'm so in love with music. My best friend let me on his Spotify family plan and my ma sent me some big 70's looking headphones, and I'm in the zone. I could just drink coffee and listen to music for days on end and be perfectly entertained. Spotify is my single favorite part of the smartphone age, it's like this infinite crate of records I can dig around in for as long as I want. I love making playlists, especially for loved ones. Taste in music Is probably my best asset. I can talk about it forever. I watched the John Cusack movie "high fidelity" on the flight to London when I was 13, and I completely identified with the main character and his obsession with music. He was passionate about making mixtapes, and I'm so with that. My life is so fucked up, but I can handle it because I have all this music. That's how I stay alive. https://youtu.be/EasggLRKyyA Playlists are the mixtape of the iPhone age, I'll make you one if you want. Ev.pen...

Note:  no names have been changed to protect the innocent. Supportive housing in NYC is when people with a history of mental illness and homelessness basically get a free shared apartment with a roommate. Sounds good right? Well, my roommate  was Antonio, a  450 pound 26 year old kid who never left the apartment for anything, even ordering grub hub from the dunkin donuts that was visible from the front door of our building. He didn't even go to the bathroom to urinate, using jars in his room.  When we moved in during the spring, I was mentally in a pretty good place, about a year sober. I was into self improvement and self care. It was hard to be paired up with this young man who had no drive to do anything but play fortnite and collect disability checks.  I thought at first that I could be helpful to him, but he started talking to me like some employee who's job it was to go brave the outside world for his cheeseburgers. I am not the one. I blame no...

I clearly remember all of the 90's anti drug commercials that would air during x-men, teenage mutant ninja turtles, and power rangers, or pete and Pete and Pete. I never had any clue why someone would do drugs, I had no grasp on the concept of being "high" or what drugs did to the consciousness.  Until 8th grade, when I got put on Adderall.i had gone from accelerated, gifted and talented, and honor roll to not giving one hot fuck about school around 6th grade. All the adults were baffled. It was the lare 1990's and any kid that fucked off in school was diagnosed with adhd. Some child psychiatrist told my parents that I had ADHD, and I should try 20mg of Adderall xr (amphetamine salts). Seeing kids head to the nurses office after lunch for their Ritalin or Adderall was a very normal part of the school day in the 90's and in the fall of 1999 I joined them. It went swimmingly... at first. Razor sharp focus, straight A's, happy teachers and happy paren...

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/7CmVDF6N3BavRshEqHEOIl?si=xeqzMG-zTr-n50CjJNLt8w&utm_source=copy-link I know it's Thom Yorkey... (solo, radishes, atoms for peace). That's OK I feel Thom Yorkey.

This whole thing with no longer being able to post on medium is fucking me up. I put so much work into that platform, I had a really long story that I was working on in little pieces that I lost interest in finishing because of the need to change platforms. Why would a BLOG site remove posting from their mobile app? This is a God damn mobile world! No sir I don't like it! Hopefully I'll accept the change, I've been pretty accepting of a lot of formally unacceptable things lately.

 Since medium took our the actual posting function from their mobile app (seriously). I will be posting all my further work here. It's good, it's connected to all my other Google owned stuff... I put so much work into medium but I just don't have access to a PC these days to keep posting there. I'm crestfallen at their decision to neuter their blog like that but it ain't gonna stop me from writing  Evr0ck17.medium.com